| You
Soft and only
You
Lost and lonely
You
Strange as angels
Dancing in the deepest oceans
Twisting in the water
You're just like a dream | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment   |
| So far this is what I have planned for the next couple months.
Thursday May 7th- Death Cab for Cutie- Hard Rock Live
Wednesday June 10th- Animal Collective- Firestone
Thursday June 11th through 14th- Bonnaroo- Manchester, TN
July ??- Visit Dadricar and Co- Portland, Ore
August 1-2-3- Alicia and Scott's Wedding!!- Lawrence, KS
August 3rd- GREEN DAY!! - St. Pete Times Forum, Tampa area
August 5th- GREEN DAY!! - Amway Arena, Orlando Florida
yay summer!
I moved into a house with a pool! yay. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| With a reasonable confidence of 99% I would say I'm having the most fun I have had in many years.
HOOOOOOOORAY! | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| PLAN: Save up a bit of money and then....
Version 1.
Get into grad school.
OR
Version 2.
Use my degree to get a job in a city that i like. Non Florida division. must have mass transit.
OR
Version 3.
Use my degree to get a substitute teaching job in a fun city. Non Florida Division. Must have mass transit.
OR
Version 4.
Use my status with Costco to transfer to a city that I like, retaining my current pay and benefits. Non Florida Division.
I'm interested in relocating and starting from scratch. I think it would be fun. Why not give chase a bit? People could come visit, and I wouldn't mind putting them up and then we could have all sorts of fun. and I don't think it would be too bad making new friends, I think I could make friends pretty quickly. I generally think people like me, and I am a little awkward but it's in an endearing way I think.
I've had too many negative people in my life, trying to tell me what I am doing in my life, when really they don't know the things I want. Only a couple people know the real real ron, and some close friends know me pretty well and I think I can do anything I put my heart into. It'll just take a little bit of work.
Any advice?? does anyone think I can do it?? | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
| I always saw the tree as a more willing participant than the boy in the relationship, and I saw the boy as needy. As time has gone on however, I have recognized the almost symbiotic relationship that had developed. The boy had wants, and the tree was always willing to oblige in exchange for the love from the boy. As Plato would call it Agape, but nonetheless there was selfless love between the boy and the tree .
The boy never took from the tree without first stating his wants. Did he ever come to the tree and say, "I'm taking this from you, you have no say."? He always presented the tree with his current dilemma, and the tree was more than willing to accommodate in every instance. What use did the tree have for apples or branches anyways?
Some may argue that the tree was saddened when the boy used the trunk to build a boat. Honestly, I believe the tree was saddened at the acknowledgment that the boy was himself sad and would be gone for quite some time sailing far away, not saddened however that the tree would now be a mere stump in the forest. The tree's despair came at the thought of losing the boy to the rest of the world, and not at the tree losing that which makes it a tree.
When the boy returned as a very old man, the tree was not bitter, but jubilant at the thought of providing the man with a place to rest his weary bones. The mere suggestion that the stump was an adequate place to provide the rest the old man was now seeking was an extension of the trees undying love for the little boy he once knew. How fitting that they both were nearing the end of their respective life cycles, both gaining that which they thought they could never have. The tree accepting the man for what he had become, watching his unexpected return fully materializing, and the man finding the rest that only the love from the tree could provide.
Or maybe it's just a child's book, and I'm reading too much into it. All my life, I would like to be the tree. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
| 1 2 3 4
take the elevator
at the hotel yorba
I'll be glad to see ya later,
all they got is vacancy
4 5 6 7
grab your umbrella,
grab hold of me,
cuz i'm your favorite fella,
all they got inside is vacancy | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| LOLLAPALOOZA. completely awesome.
I hope I never forget this weekend as long as I live.
Bands we saw:
Friday: Radiohead, Bloc Party, The Black Keys, The Black Lips, Louis XIV, Rogue Wave, Cat Power, The Kills, CSS
Saturday: Wilco, Brand New, Broken Social Scene, MGMT, Innerparty System, Uffie
Sunday: Kanye West, Kid Sister, Brazilian Girls, Iron and Wine, Saul Williams, Girl Talk, Mark Ronson
wowwwwwwwwwwwww. Watching fireworks explode in the air while Radiohead plays Fake Plastic Trees (my fave radiohead song!!) is something I'll never forget. ever. This weekend was like a movie. | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| I had so much fun this weekend. yesssssss.
This coming week: work. work. work. Campout on Thursday. Lollapalooza on Friday. AND it's Shark WEEK!
O my god, My friends RULE. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I've acquired an assortment of fireworks for tomorrow. Hopefully it will be very fun launching them off, and watching them explode into the night sky. I launched a few bottle rockets today and I was happy with the outcome. These rockets are not the ones that scream all the way until they explode, but probably go up about 60 feet and then you get a loud pop. I prefer this type of bottle rocket. I also have mortar shells!
My personal life has been very interesting to say the least. Emily Ross and I are no longer together, and being single has helped me develop a sense of knowing what I can accomplish, and instilled confidence in my abilities to socially interact with people without saying 'hey wait, I have a girlfriend ya know?'. Not to say that while dating Emily I had many encounters that resulted in that exchange, rather, I'm completely vulnerable now, and it's a feeling I haven't literally had for more than 2 months total in the last 8 or 9 years. I most definitely wouldn't take back any of that time within the last 4 or so years, but I am seeing a side of myself that has been hidden for so long that it has left me feeling like I am gathering information about the person I am, because I really didn't know me.
I feel like I am recovering emotions that are typical of people in their late teens to mid twenties, but I haven't felt them or needed to. Things like the excitement of meeting new people and uncertainty are newer emotions to me. One thing I have not compromised and I have exercised freely is that I must stay true to myself, be exactly who I am, not apologize for my feelings on anything (org religion, war, politics, being accepting of marijuana use, love of all things Red Sox and Rays, watching pro wrestling, playing video games, my friends being the way they are, being fine with being a college graduate with no exact plan for the long term).
If you try to be someone else, or someone you're not, or someone who listens to other opinions and then tries to make them your own regardless of how you feel, you are not being true to yourself. You can change for other people, but it should never be for the things you hold near and dear, and things that you value highly, or you lose your identity and begin to take on the identity of someone else. I personally like the way I am, and I wouldn't change me because I feel that I am a good person, and I do a lot of positive things for other people who look to me to do the right thing sometimes.
At this phase I am completely approachable and game for whatever. I've said since the beginning that I do not want a girlfriend, because this isn't about replacing Emily Ross (who is indeed a very lovely girl), this is about finding who I am and finding out what I am about. IDK what the future holds, but right now I am Ron Albright being Ron Albright.
and that's what's important to me right now. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| Facts:
I'm 22 years old. fairly happy. I could pass a drug test today. moving in with a great friend and a friend who is more like my brother than anything else. I love xbox 360. I like my job. I'm making new friends. I watch Monday Night Raw because I am comfortable with the fact that wrestling is retarded, but I love it anyways. I'm a pretty good listener but once you let me talk I keep yapping. I love riding bicycles. I am a recent college graduate. I haven't gotten into a TV show since The O.C was on TV. I like downtown Orlando. I would like to go to Universal Studios soon. I often think about people in my life who have moved away, lost touch or those that have died. I went almost twenty years without going to a single funeral, and in 2.5 years I've been to 5. 2 family, 2 friend, 1 who i didn't know. I listen to music that was cool 5 years ago, and have lost touch with what's popular. If it has a certain beat or sounds like a band I already like, I will probably listen to it. I want to see the following bands (again for some) in the next 2 years: Green Day, Decemberists, Death Cab, Killers, Saves The Day, Jimmy Eat World, Radiohead, Tom Petty, John Fogerty.
That's all that was on my mind right now. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| I feel like I'm hitting my stride again....
what a great birthday! thanks everyone! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I've figured out Lucid Dreaming and I'm considering keeping a dream journal.
I went mental last night when I was trying to sleep.
I'm getting a job at Costco. yay!
Spring Break was excellent.
that is all. | | comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment |
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